Sunday, August 30, 2015

Weekly Life Update: Starting & Quitting My New Job


Hey guys! I'm back again with another weekly life update. Apologies for the lack of beauty and fashion posts lately; I promise I'll be back on with them starting this week. In fact tomorrow I'll be writing my monthly favourites post so check back tomorrow for that :-)

So this week has been rather.. memorable. As you may or may not know I got a new job! It was a call centre job close by to where I live and although everyone says how bad call centres are, it sounded pretty perfect. Good hours, finish early on a Friday, good money, easy job. That was what I thought anyway, it's what lured me in. It was never supposed to be a 'forever' thing anyway. It was only mean't to be for the mean time until I found my perfect career. I started on Thursday. I also quit on Thursday! Ha ha, let me explain..

So I arrived at my new job half an hour early and I sat nervously in my car watching all of the other employees arrive into the car park and exchange banter with each other whilst strolling inside the building. I felt optimistic and thought the people seemed friendly enough. When it was time to start I entered the building and was met by my new manager who was absolutely lovely. We had a good chat and I thought I was off to a good start, it didn't seem so bad. I was shown over to a girl who looked only perhaps a couple of years older than myself, she was responsible for training me for the day. She wasn't particularly friendly, nor did she seem thrilled to be working with me either. I stayed positive and followed her around the building as she gave me a tour. From the very start of the day I saw the word 'Leads' everywhere. On the walls, on white boards, on pieces of paper. I didn't know what this mean't. The building seemed dated and a little dismal - to say the least. We walked back upstairs to the main office area and sat at the desk ready to start the learning process of the main reason I was there - to work. She quickly went through the software and I think I picked it up pretty fast. She then introduced me to "the handbook" I'll call it. It contained everything I needed to know and all of the answers to questions I might be asked during calls. It took me a while to read through but I still wasn't confident with everything in there. In fact I felt that I didn't really like some of the answers to the questions, or maybe it was the way they were worded. The girl mentioned the word 'leads' and told me I won't know what they were yet (I didn't) but I would soon. I carried on learning until it was time for our first break. We had a 15 minute break, a half an hour lunch and another 15 minute break in the afternoon which I felt was just like school - it was not what I was used to, such structure. I was told I will have my break with the girl, however she left me on my own in the break room. Nobody spoke to me. I stayed on my phone the entire time but I couldn't even receive signal to send texts.

When I got back off break I was thrown into the deep end and began making calls. It was so nerve wracking that the palms of my hands were sweating and for the most part I had no idea what I was doing. The people on the phone made me feel like such a nuisance and I probably was. Especially as I didn't know how to answer their questions and although I wasn't selling anything I was just collecting information, I felt like I was invading their privacy and I hated it. The girl that was training me continued to review my calls and tell me what I was doing wrong and praising me for what I did right. She still hadn't told me what a 'Lead' was. She was also telling me things that were completely different to what another guy was telling me to do (he took over from her for a short period while she was busy).

When it got to lunch time I went downstairs to the break room alone and felt like everyone was staring at me. I was truly experiencing what it was like to be 'the new girl at school'. I sat on my own in the corner away from everyone else who were all in their groups. I felt so awkward I didn't even want to eat lunch. I felt too sick from nerves to eat anyway. Nobody spoke to me again. I kept hearing the word 'Leads'. I managed to receive signal on my phone and I texted my Mum. I said 'i HATE it mum'. She replied with 'Aw give it a chance, You'll be okay x'. At this point I was holding back tears. I did not want anybody to see me cry. Not on my first day! So I fought through it.

The second half of the day had started and I continued making calls. The girl was gossiping with her friends beside me, bitching about other co-workers and talking about how bad they were. I had a suspicion that she was saying the same things about me. After a short while she left me on my own and I had no-one around me if I needed help. This made me even more nervous.

It was time for the last break and yet again I sat on my own. My mind began thinking of old times at the cinema where my breaks were all full of banter and laughs. Even when I first started there people made the effort to speak to me. Although I complained about the place all the time I had never felt this lonely and miserable. Fighting back tears for the second time I forced a smile on my face and prepared myself for the last part of my day.

I sat back down at the crappy old PC with my headset on and continued with the mind numbing work. My head was pounding and my mouth was dry. I think it was at this point where I remembered, I'm going to have to come back here tomorrow and do the same thing, and next week, and the next week. Yes, that was the moment I had made up my mind - no amount of money was worth being miserable and doing something you hate and don't even agree with. Each minute was passing by so slowly, especially as every call lasted less than a minute. I wanted to pull my hair out. I wanted to throw my headset at the girl who hadn't asked 1 question about me all day. I wanted to run out of the door and never come back.

5:00 finally came and I prepared myself to leave. I was still unsure whether or not I was going to return the next day so I politely said goodbye to the girl and left the building. Nobody else said goodbye. I got into my car and exited the carpark. Once I was on the main road, all of the tears that had been building up all day flooded out. I was crying so hard I could barely keep my eyes open to drive. I didn't even think about going home, my instinct was to drive straight back to the cinema. And so I did. I got to the cinema, still crying and I was welcomed back with open arms - literally. Everyone was hugging me and it made me cry even more as I was overwhelmed with love. The following morning I rang in and explained that I won't be coming back and it felt so good knowing I'll never have to return to that miserable place.

So for the mean time I'm back with my cinema family working there until I find my perfect job. But for the mean time I'm happy I'm with my friends - they're the best people you'll ever meet. No job is worth tears and misery. And I still don't know what 'Leads' are.

Thanks so much for reading guys, I'll be back tomorrow with my monthly faves.

Abiee x

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26 comments:

  1. Aw man that sounded awful!! First days are always hard, but the fact everyone happily left you by yourself or didn't make conversation is fairly crap. I hope your next job is great! P.S those folks at the cinema sound like the nicest bunch. I'm starting a new job soon so fingers crossed my colleagues are nice :P

    Sinéad
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    1. I knoww it just really wasn't for me at all :( even though it was just for the mean time I wasn't prepared to force myself to be miserable! Aw thank you so much :-) And yess they really are amazing! I don't think I'll ever find a bunch of colleagues like them! Ooooh wow good luck!! I really hope you love it and don't quit on the same day like me hehe :-)
      Thanks for your lovely comment! xxx

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  2. You’re officially one of my favourite bloggers, keep up the great work! xxx



    Ghost Girl Fragrance- Dare to be YOU!

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    1. Awww thank you so much!!! That's so lovely to hear, you have officially made my week! hehe :D xxx

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  3. That job sounds terrible! Who the hell treats someone who's new like that? You haave to be supportive and caring, if not that person will feel miserable and will quit as you did!I think you take a good decission, nothing worths your tears and misarable feelings.
    Enjoy your job and your day! xx

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    1. I completely agree! I think they went about it the complete wrong way and were very unwelcoming! I have heard that they are constantly having to employ new people because people are always quitting! no wonder! Thanks for your lovely comment & enjoy your day also :-) xxx

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  4. That sounds horrible! Glad you're back at your old job now though :) good luck finding your dream career xx

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    1. It really was! Thank you so much!! :-) xxx

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  5. So sorry to hear about this negative experience! It is really the job of current employees to be welcoming and make you excited to be joining a new team. The work may not have been exciting, but if people were friendlier I am sure you would have wanted to work there. Did you ever find out what leads where, cos now I am quite curious!

    Rae | Love from Berlin

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    1. I completely agree! Just like my job at the cinema, sometimes it can take it's toll but the people there make it all worth while, I bet it would be the same anywhere :-) Haha nope I never found out!! It's so frustrating. Thanks for your lovely comment :-) xxx

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  6. SO sorry to hear your new job didn't work out but you definitely made the right decision in leaving it obviously wasn't the right fit for you!

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    1. Aww thank you! Yess I definitely feel it was the right decision too. Especially as I would have ended up quitting anyway so better to do it before they waste all their training on me :-) Thanks for your comment xxx

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  7. Keep being positive :) Kiss from France, Sand.

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  8. This sounds terrible. There's nothing worse than feeling left out at work, when you have to spend so much time there! Never read your blog before but I'm off to explore some other posts now

    Melly xo

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    1. I know it's awful feeling like the new girl at school! Especially when you're an adult you don't think people will behave like school kids! Aww thank you so much I really hope you like it :D xxx

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  9. You have such a nice blog! Keep up a good work! <3

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    Let me know on my blog & I'll follow back right away.
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    1. Thank you so much! I'm not sure what gfc is? :-) xxx

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  10. definitely don't do anything that makes you miserable! glad you're happy with where you're at though :)

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  11. I'm not going to lie, I am now very intrigued to know what 'Leads' are. I agree that working somewhere that makes you so miserable is worth no amount of money. It's good that you've gone to work back at the cinema and you have a good group of friends there.

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    1. Haha so am I! I'll definitely have to write about it if I ever find out haha :-) And yess I agree! Thanks so much for your lovely comment :-) xxx

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  12. This post made me so angry that they treated you so badly.. Block it out and look to the future now, being happy is all that matters! Xxx

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    1. I know it made me angry too :-( but unfortunately my anger was expressed through tears haha!
      Yesss definitely! Onwards and upwards :-) xxx

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  13. Abiee! It's Rachel Sharpe! I keep trying to comment under my actual blog username but it won't seem to let me comment :-/ But wanted to say... Just found your blog via your Facebook page and thought I'd check it out :) Then I read this post and it made me really sad to know you were treated like that at your new workplace :( I'm glad you quit straight away and went back to Odeon... I miss that place so much! I think we were totally spoilt there for how fab the people are, I still haven't found a job I like being at as much because I've never found a bunch of people I like so much! I do feel really out of the loop now though, I never get to see anybody anymore :(
    Anyway! Hope you're okay! Your blog looks awesome! :D I'm just starting one as well but it's not as pretty as yours! lol. Take care :) xx

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    1. Aww Rachel!! I totally agree I feel like I'm never going to find the friends I have there in any other work place :-( Which is so annoying because it almost makes me not want to move on haha! But I cannot scoop popcorn for the rest of my life! I dream of this (my blog) being my full time job one day but I earn a pittance off it so I'm a long way off that yet.. Aw I really miss you and miss working with you! We need to go for drinks or something soon :-) And thank you so much! I hope you're well too - See you soon! :-) xx

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