Tuesday, October 18, 2016

I'm still here


Daydreams of getaways and adventures in the late afternoons interrupted by strident barks from Rosie at the bottom of the garden. Blocking the intense heat of the sun by positioning my book in the air just right, for as long as I can stand it until my arm gets tired. The first Summer spent alone in several years I realise was not so difficult as I imagined it would be.

Writing short stories anonymously on the internet, blogging about fashion and make-up and things nobody cares about but me, reading, drawing, singing, creating terrible pieces of artwork on Photoshop that only I will ever see. All things I love; neglected. But as I watched the Summer draw out, I watched close friends move on from this town, I watched the light burn out from within my dog's eyes as she lay in my arms, I watched myself get lost for a short while.

Until I realised, I'm still here.

I love my life, my friends, my family, the way I know I'm terrible at playing piano but I still go ahead and do it anyway. I love my car even though it's always failing. I love my overzealously when I have planned a night out that everyone is up for. This year I have learned a lot about my self, about life, about accepting and loving being alone.

I will be reading and writing, drawing and singing through the year into next Summer and the next. For I'm still here.




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